So, tomorrow is a big day for me. I officially enter my final year in my 30’s. For some reason, I am really struggling with this event. I know that for most turning the big 4-0 is a big deal. Maybe it’s the fact that I know that is now only a year away.
I recall a time when 39 seemed SOOOOO old to me. It seemed like such a long time away. And now, the day has arrived. And with that come so many things that I don’t like. Every month that passes I have more aches and pains, and things going wrong with my body, making me FEEL old. Every day I find more and more gray hair and wrinkles, making me LOOK old. l looked at a picture my husband took of me the other day and thought “Oh my God! I look so old! How did this happen?!” I know that it’s inevitable, and there is absolutely no stopping it. But I don’t want to FEEL or LOOK old! Not to mention becoming more and more forgetful, not being able to remember things, and the increase of bodily noises. Come on, you know you can’t deny it either. I used to laugh at older people when I heard the constant noises, but now I no longer laugh, I realize that it is an unfortunate part of becoming older! Jeff and I laughed just the other night at the thought of what we will be like in 20 more years!
I could go on and on about all of the things that I dislike about getting older. But instead of that, I am going to focus on…
39 Things I Love About Turning 39
- My three beautiful children that I get to share my life and experiences with.
- Looking into my toddler’s eyes every day, and seeing the world in a different way through his innocence and smile.
- My husband, who makes me laugh every day, and has taught me the true value of humor.
- The fact that I am still learning valuable lessons from my husband.
- Having the wonderful opportunity to be blessed with a caring, loving, respectful, family-oriented spouse that has the same values as I do.
- Being able to share my life with my best friend and soul mate.
- My family. They have always been there for me, and been supportive of every path I have chosen to follow.
- Having the ability to work part-time from home, in a job that I truly enjoy and get to use my passion for writing.
- Not having a “career” and instead being given the opportunity and ability to spend more time with my family.
- Having a myriad of work experiences that I have learned so many valuable skills from, and met so many wonderful people through.
- My blog, my creative outlet.
- Knowing that I have made many mistakes in my life, and being able to acknowledge and accept those mistakes.
- Being able to learn and grow from my past mistakes, and put them in my past.
- Being able to laugh at my mistakes.
- Knowing that my life experiences have shaped the person that I have become.
- Being comfortable enough in my own skin that I can throw my hair up and leave the house with no make up on. But know that I still like to make myself look good.
- Being comfortable enough in my own skin that I can leave the house in sweats, but will not wear “mom” jeans!
- Still being able to enjoy dressing up and looking nice, but understanding the value of comfort, especially in shoes, at times.
- Knowing that it is getting tougher and tougher to maintain and take care of my body, and appreciating that, but still allowing myself to enjoy things that I enjoy.
- Still being blessed with good genetics that make it easier than for most to maintain a youthful body.
- Learning to appreciate a changing body, especially after giving birth to a third child at 37.
- In spite of my growing aches and pains, being thankful for my health and the fact that up until this point I haven’t had to deal with any major health issues.
- The fact that there was a time when I ate a lot of fast food and unhealthy things, and that now I crave and appreciate healthy food, and rarely eat fast food.
- Doing as much as I can to help my family embrace and live a healthy life.
- Having matured in my food tastes enough that I have tried things I never dreamed I would try, and ended up loving!
- Still getting carded when I buy alcohol.
- Being able to truly enjoy time at home with my family.
- Being able to truly enjoy a night out with my husband.
- Looking back on a point in my life that going out was important, and being thankful that it is no longer important to me, or my husband.
- Looking back on a point in my life that I surrounded myself with different people, and being thankful that some of those people are no longer important to me, or in my life.
- Being mature enough to be able to make the conscious choice of who to surround myself with.
- Being financially responsible, even though at times it isn’t as much fun.
- Being able to share the same financial values as my husband.
- Having the opportunity to build a new home.
- Not caring about being with the “in” crowd.
- Not knowing who the “in” crowd is.
- Knowing that as much as we all hate responsibility at times, that I have no desire to go back to my younger college days.
- Knowing that people have come in and out of my life for a reason, and that each of them has served a purpose at a particular point in my life.
- The fact that I will be turning 39 and have many more years ahead of me.
I realize that I have so many things to be thankful for in my life, and that I have learned so much from every experience that I have had. Although the idea of turning 39 isn’t settling well with me, I know that I am blessed beyond measure, and that there are many people who are not as fortunate. Even though at times I feel like I am falling apart and losing my mind, I guess turning 39 isn’t so bad after all. So here’s to another year in my 30’s before I turn the big 4-0.